A bored mind....
Recently we were at a local art exhibit where the artist, Dar Freeland, had her work for sale. I was drawn to one of her pieces and returned to it several times throughout the evening. The title was: "A Bored Mind Will Create Drama." I had no idea how it would come to mean so much to me...
My heart was torn apart in the last week by someone that I thought I could trust; someone that I thought loved me; someone I never would have expected. I won't go into the ugly details or share who it was...they know. The rest of the family involved also knows.
Things that were spread to virtual strangers were twisted truths....slanted versions of real circumstances. This is one of the reasons that I am certain of the person's guilt. How could a stranger know such things? The other reason is that she admitted to part of it. But her story kept evolving, depending on how much I had found out. A sure sign of guilt, if ever there were one.
This family member hurt not only me, but several others in our family. Each day since the big revelation, I have been struggling to find out WHY. What did she gain by selling us out? What did she think would come of her lies? Didn't she know I would find out? Needless to say, I have lost sleep over these questions. I have shed more than enough tears. I have truly ached over it.
The thought that keeps repeating in my head is this: a bored mind will create drama. How true. People who don't have enough to occupy their minds tend to over-analyze. People who are jealous, envious, covetous (whichever term you prefer) tend to make their issues, your issues. To put it quite simply, someone who is not leading a fulfilled life, either consciously OR unconsciously sets out to destroy those who are; therefore, creating drama where there is none.
So, am I comforted in my realization of this? No. How could I be? I have lost someone that was dear to me. Things will never be the same. Our lives will forever be altered by her actions. However, I am aware that there was nothing I could have done to make the outcome any different. And I know that that art spoke to me for a reason.
(To view "A Bored Mind" and other works by Dar Freeland, visit her site at www.faceupstudio.com.)
My heart was torn apart in the last week by someone that I thought I could trust; someone that I thought loved me; someone I never would have expected. I won't go into the ugly details or share who it was...they know. The rest of the family involved also knows.
Things that were spread to virtual strangers were twisted truths....slanted versions of real circumstances. This is one of the reasons that I am certain of the person's guilt. How could a stranger know such things? The other reason is that she admitted to part of it. But her story kept evolving, depending on how much I had found out. A sure sign of guilt, if ever there were one.
This family member hurt not only me, but several others in our family. Each day since the big revelation, I have been struggling to find out WHY. What did she gain by selling us out? What did she think would come of her lies? Didn't she know I would find out? Needless to say, I have lost sleep over these questions. I have shed more than enough tears. I have truly ached over it.
The thought that keeps repeating in my head is this: a bored mind will create drama. How true. People who don't have enough to occupy their minds tend to over-analyze. People who are jealous, envious, covetous (whichever term you prefer) tend to make their issues, your issues. To put it quite simply, someone who is not leading a fulfilled life, either consciously OR unconsciously sets out to destroy those who are; therefore, creating drama where there is none.
So, am I comforted in my realization of this? No. How could I be? I have lost someone that was dear to me. Things will never be the same. Our lives will forever be altered by her actions. However, I am aware that there was nothing I could have done to make the outcome any different. And I know that that art spoke to me for a reason.
(To view "A Bored Mind" and other works by Dar Freeland, visit her site at www.faceupstudio.com.)
